Under Cover.

I think it's interesting how we slowly develop a lifestyle. The things we do everyday and the way we view things and eat things and grow things and see things and hear things and say things and watch things and hate things and love things. It's so interesting how you can say one day, well, I'm now and forever done doing... whatever thing you do. And then, eventually you're gunna do what you've always done at least one time, again. I think there is something to the phrase that you can't teach an old dog new tricks. But he's never going to be as good at the new trick as he is at the trick he's been doing since he was puppy. And it's hard to unteach a dog how to sit and stay right? Or has anyone ever tried? Or think about this; how many things in your life have you started? I'm going to start working out, or starting riding my bike to work, or start recycling or start ironing my clothes. How long has it been before you Stopped doing all those things? A week? A month? Maybe a year? Nevertheless, it does stop. And people call it laziness. Maybe. But it applies to other things too. I'm going to start taking half an hour to sit and do nothing when I come home from work. How long is it going to take before you start feeling like you just have to do something? And that seems like the opposite of laziness to me. I think that it's not laziness that makes us convert back to our "old tricks". I think perhaps, that it is in fact, what we have habitually done for such a long time, and it becomes more inferring to our life to change our ways. Because, after all, it's so hard to break habits that you've had for so long, like driving to work, or throwing away empty cans of refried beans. You learn things so well that it becomes hard to change or start anything out of the ordinary. Sometimes it can seem as though we are all undercover doing what we want people to think of us as. I want people to see me as a lean mean, sex machine. Or some kind of green liberal hippie, if you will. Why? Because we always want to make ourselves better. And yet, we never what we were never taught is the endurance to make a lifestyle change come into fruition completely. It seems as though we just wish things to happen, and if they don't it's too much work. We could always try to learn new tricks, but it's really mastering those tricks that we seem to have to work on.